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    • #8421
      David the Gnome
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      Maybe a cheeky post for a 34 year old punk to write, but lately I’ve been feeling some nostalgia – or maybe gas.

      I’ve been thinking about how very fast things can change.  One day, your life seems set in stone, the path before you as clear as a calm, pristine lake. Then life (and associated “stuff”) happens.  I certainly never saw so many things coming.

      In the 90s, when I was a gnomechild, the internet wasnt really big yet.  Computers were big and clunky and weird looking.  I was considered a total nerd for playing online text based games when there was Sega and super Nintendo and so on.

      Now, you’re considered more odd if you dont twit, Facebook, snapchat – and so on.  If you dont have a smart phone, you’re living in the dark ages!  Robotics, automation, the growth of mcjobs and the weakening of the economy.

      Over and over, rich fools break everything and come looking to us to fix them.  Wars, bank bailouts, in the end, climate change – and even dirty politics only change when we will it.

      In a little over 100 years… television, mass communication, computers, phones and electricity in most homes – now the internet, tablets…

      I feel… kind of old.  I see so many people in their teens or twenties, good natured young people – but so many dont seem to have a clue.  That alcohol will get people killed if you drive, those drugs will RIP away your life – and maybe your family, too.

      I remember so many lovely gardens when I was a boy… now, so few.  I remember a feeling of respect for authority, pride in being American.  The basic notion that, politics aside… we were in this together.

      (Please note that when I use “we” I am speaking very generally and treading softly)

      Then came Bush, 9/11, war, stock market crash, the patriot act – and so very much else.  The rug was pulled out from under us – we weren’t so invulnerable after all.

      As a kid, I had a lot of problems… but as I grew slowly into a semi adult – i had a lot more.  Every principle, aspect of my faith, long accepted notions of the truth… all changed in what seems a twinkling.

      Once, I think, I was on track to be… someone else.  Full ride at a university at 18 – after getting my GED at 17.  Could have gone places, done things, been a psychologist…

      Now, I am happy when I can get through a day without feeling like I’m having a heart attack.  The world, the news, people, life – everything seems to move at warp speed now.  I cant keep up. Processing everything takes time – takes me more than most.

      Is this how everyone feels when reflecting on days gone by?  I’m not really that old – but some times I feel three times my age.  So much has come and gone in my short life.

      Does anyone else find themselves asking… “what happened?  This wasnt in the planbook!”

      Should a coulda woulda, maybe in a world gone mad, we who remain are lucky to just cling to sanity at all.  Too… fast.

    • #8458
      NV Wino
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      All I can say is you life at 34 is much more stressful than my life at 34 was.

      “As we act, let us not become the evil that we deplore.” Barbara Lee
      “Politicians and pro athletes: The only people who still get paid when they lose.” William Rivers Pitt

      • #8484
        David the Gnome
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        Is that people used to tell me that when I was fourteen – “old soul”, was something they liked to call me -and not all of them meant it as a compliment.

        Things change, one of life’s few inevitabilities.  Change is tough.  Hard to accept, to process, for a lot of people – including me.  Life up here in Aroostook County Maine is slower than in most places.  There is a general store about 8 miles away from me that is the only store for another 15 or so.

        Older folks often gather there for coffee, snacks..  to shoot the breeze, speak of the good old days.  Fifteen years ago, they had two restaurants they could do that in, both closer to home.

        Stan’s 10 cent coffee was legendary – and for five bucks, you got a breakfast with way more than most can eat.

        Those little places are gone in every (even slightly) bigger town or city.  People try to be polite and all… but generally, when a retail clerk at Walmart says have a nice day – they know their own – and probably yours too, will suck.

        Maybe it’s where I was raised.  Everything seems to reach us 10-15 years later than everywhere else… except drugs, those, we get early.

        Grandfathers used to tell me drugs were ruining us.  Only as a grown man did I begin to comprehend what they meant.

        Just, wow. Some times, I wish for a much slower world.  But, it is what it is.  Back to running my gnome crazybrain on its hamster wheel..

        Love y’all.

    • #8486
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      Is it any wonder that people seem so stressed and frazzled?

      One could rightly argue that humans are not equipped for this pace of information consumption.


      “Those who make peaceful revolution impossible will make violent revolution inevitable."
      - John F. Kennedy

      "The further a society drifts from the truth the more it will hate those who speak it."
      - George Orwell

      "It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society."
      - Jiddu Krishnamurti

      "Sometimes a pessimist is only an optimist with extra information."
      - Idries Shah

      "A riot is the language of the unheard."
      - Martin Luther King

      • #8694
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        The huge uptick of cars running over pedestrians, more accidents, inability to converse and keep a train of thought going….all a result of cellphones and other electronics.

        it also may be making people ruder in person because it is easy to be rude online and suffer few consequences.

        Animals know more than we do.

    • #8690
      Cold Mountain Trail
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    • #8696
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      Sometimes it seems like in looking back that they were dreams. Many carefree days sometimes with little stress not like now. Yes there were difficult times but now perhaps my awareness is heightened and the stresses are greater with our planet.

      Animals know more than we do.

    • #8697
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      As you know, I just turned 50…as I recall, my early 30s were the period when I really began to notice that the world was not the same as it once was. I think that happens to all of us- all of us who care to pay attention.


      If you give a man enough rope, it will be six inches too short. This is not the nature of rope- it is the nature of man.

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